A Journey Through My Random Thoughts

I’m such a huge fan of the Bad Boys Movies that I could watch them on mute, no subtitles needed—heck, I could even close my eyes and still picture every scene with the sound blasting! My family and I have basically turned quoting the movies into our own secret language.

There’s a scene in the third installment-Bad Boys for Life-where Mike goes to Captain Howard’s granddaughter’s basketball game. The Captain shares a story about a Buddhist guy riding a horse so fast that when they pass “let’s call him another Buddhist guy” they almost run him over. The second Buddhist guy yells, “where are you going” and the horseback rider responds, “I don’t know….ask the horse.”

I find myself in a season where I feel like I’m running people over because my metaphorical horse is leading the way.

To be honest, this should have been my first blog, but it's a little late for that! So if you've felt that my previous blogs have been missing something or all over the place.... here's why...

I have so many thoughts that I want to share, projects that I want to lead, people that I want to reach, and I find that I’m trying to do it all at warped speed.

The work trauma I talked about in my first blog left me feeling a bit like an imposter. I've been doubting my leadership skills, thinking about switching careers, and dealing with feeling rejected. Because of all this, I feel like I have to show my worth to my friends, my family, and my kids.

I keep my thoughts on track (see what I did there…Train of Thought blog)-ok…FOCUS…by scheduling text messages and blog releases because otherwise, you'd get five in one day, and who has time for all that?! But then I start overthinking—when's the best time to send the text; will I offend someone; how many days should I wait before posting another blog...

I guess I just want everyone to know I was here, but I'm still trying to figure out how to do that without being overwhelming.

And just like this blog feels “all over the place”, so are the thoughts in my head. I feel like I have a mental fog one moment and the next moment, I can't keep up with my brain. It's frustrating because I want to be able to focus on one thing at a time or be more clear in my communication and tell a story that includes all of the details.

So, I’m going to grab that horse and allow God to show me how to guide it so that I don’t continue to run over people.

So, where are you going? Are you sprinting alongside me, chilling at the starting line (of that never-ending assignment), or cruising along like a pro on a Sunday drive?

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